Performance and Anxiety and My Reaction

So, as you may or may not know, I am doing a Mondo Beyondo Dream Lab. I was drawn to this Dream Lab because Brene Brown is leading it, and we all know that I have a researcher crush on her. 
Anyway, she does audios twice a week and most of them are amazing. And sometimes, they just knock me off my feet. Especially, one she did last week which I have been mulling around in my head since. It’s about how we react to anxiety. 
She describes two kinds of people: Over-performers and Under-performers. 
The Over-Performers are the ones who take control. They make lists, are 15 minutes early to everything, and become super focused. 
You know where I’m going with this. 
The Under-Performers, they’re the ones who freeze. They start losing the lists, they numb, they don’t quite make it. 
Now, society values over-performers much more than under-performers, but both are not good place to be. Both afford us serious problems.
And, I have come to the realization that I am an under-performer. When I find myself in a high-stress, high-anxiety situation, I totally freeze up. Like, you know, with Comps. I find anything that I can do to not do what I need to do. I lose the lists I make and I clam up.I think about twitter posts, even though I don’t have a twitter. And facebook. Hello procrastination.

It’s a problem, but it’s me. Maybe this comps studying will put me in a better place.

Probably not.

But cupcakes help.