10 Things I’ve Already Learned in 2012

1. Even though I encourage the mister to email, chat with, and contact people he admires (and give him a hard time when he doesn’t) I am terrible at following my own advice.

2. My migraine medicine also gets rid of night terrors, which equates to 10 nightmare-free nights for me. Which also means better sleep for the mister.

3. I enjoy purchasing water bottles.

4. It’s all Shawntel’s fault. Further, I adore Bachelor Night’s with my friends. Mainly because I don’t have to censor any of my natural sarcasm.

5. I know nothing, absolutely nothing, about coding. Also, my husband is way smarter than me in many, many areas.

6. I work with the coolest students around.

7. I still despise taking down Christmas decorations. It makes me so sad, and the house look so empty.

8. I need to get to bed earlier.

9.  School supplies own me. And, no matter how hard I try, I have to have fine point pens.

10. I will probably pay for Spotify, and do it happily.

 

What have you learned, so far, this year?

Here we go again

Hello!

I’ve clearly moved.

My wonderful mister convinced me to set up my own website and try my hand at blogging again.

So. Here we are.

I’ve been racking my mind for something wonderful to start out with that didn’t involve apologizing for an absence, which led me to about 10 different ideas which froze me in my place and then I thought I should just get on with it and start somewhere, right?

Right.

This morning, I woke up, I went to work (I even got here early… wha?!), and was working away when I noticed that APW had a new blog up and it was written by Meg (my favorite kind!). I have a special relationship with APW that begins back in 2008 when Meg opened the lovely website. I have not stopped reading since. I’ve even been published there a couple of times.  Anyway, today she shared her thoughts on working for herself for one year which, after reading, left me a weepy mess at my desk.

I recommend you read it all, but these two pieces really hit me:

“Success is some of the most terrifying shit I’ve ever experienced. And I never saw it coming.”

“We keep changing, and we keep pushing through the fear. Beyond that barrier, the world is totally open to us. Life gets better, but it sure as hell doesn’t get easier. Which is how it should be.”

Which is what all this is, right?

All of it — the work, the school, the writing, the dancing, the growing up, the making decisions, the eating, the laughing, the sobbing, the reading… it’s life. It’s changing, scary shit that is also unbelievably amazing.

So, welcome back to me and you. Happy 2012. Let’s keep going.

 

An Engagment!

I don’t know if you recall or not, but I have a Life List. You can take a gander at it here.
And on that Life List is “be asked to take photos of an event.” I added this about 3 months ago as a sincere wish that someone would recognize my photography and perhaps give me a chance to photograph their event.
This brings me to this past weekend. One of my friends recently became engaged, and she had asked me if I would be willing to shoot their engagements and possibly their wedding.
Woah.
First, it felt wonderful to feel recognized. I think at the core of everything, as humans we all want someone to see us. Really and truly see us and our passions and hopes and our dreams. And while photographing their love may not fulfill my hopes and dreams and passions, I defintely felt recognized.
Yet, I struggled with it. My heart was saying, “yes, yes! you’re wonderful and you are a good photographer. do it.” But my brain, oh that rascal, was replying, “huh. you’re a student. and not an art student at that. you can’t do this. they won’t turn out well, because you don’t know what you’re doing. Only real photographers can do that.” And that last comment is the crux of it isn’t it? Well, after debating, I finally told my brain to stop. Seriously, stop. If they don’t like the engagements, then we will find another photographer. It’s okay.
So, last Sunday, I met with Mary and Shawn at the place where they were engaged and I had the honor to photograph snippets of their love. And I have never experienced something quite as great as that.
Below are a couple of my favorites, but you can see all of them on my flickr page.
So doing this as brought up some pretty significant thoughts in my heart and my head.
And I owe it to Mary, for recognizing me.
(I would love to hear your thoughts about the photos – you can comment here or on any of the images on flickr!)

Don’t Stop

I have been in love with this commercial since I first saw it. It’s one of those that I stop the fast forwarding of shows to watch.
I don’t know what it is about this commercial: the music? the costumes? the dancing? the message maybe? But I adore it.
I hope you do to.